CHARLES & CAMILLA

Don't get me wrong...

I couldn't give a fuck about any of them

Still, I found myself mesmerized following every detail

of their weekend wedding

The reason is simple... it gave me hope...

20 years ago this wedding was impossible... unthinkable

Fuck... even 10 years ago it was still impossible... unthinkable...

But there they were... 20 years later... making the impossible possible...

it gave me hope that maybe...

20 years from now...

when I'll be, just like Charles, pushing 60...

I might finally... just like him...

get to marry my one true love.

Isn't that something worth waiting 20 years for?

CONFLICTED

I’m all out of faith, this is how I feel
I’m cold and I am torn lying naked on the floor...

On one hand, an eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth...
Now is the time to settle the score
And payback the indifference I received
From the one person I never thought would fail me...

On the other... I just can't go against my nature...
That is just not me... especially since...
Every nerve, every muscle and every ounce of life I got is loudly begging me to
Let go of grudges and disappointments of the past and
Just do what I'm really dying to do... what I need to do...
Which is to bring out those 76 trombones to lead the big parade

Should I listen to my heart or to my brain?