Muchos años uno cree

Que el caer es levantarse

Y de repente, ya no te paras

Y uno cree que puede creer

Y tener todo el poder

Y de repente, no tienes nada

It's just that on the specific day at the specific moment

when I really need all my work, dedication, effort, and love

recognized and acknowledged...

As usual, I get nothing...

not even on birthdays or special days...

Frustrating, ain't it?

She....

She can kill with her eyes,

She can ruin your faith with her painful words,

She'll shamelessly cut you and laugh while you're bleeding

She'll say she cares about you but it will not be true

Cause she only cares about herself

and

She'll make you feel soooo small...

Some love is just a lie of the heart
The cold remains of what began with a passionate start
And though you may not want it to end
It will... it's just a question of when

Some love is just a lie of the mind
It's make believe until its only a matter of time
And some might have learned to adjust
But then it never was a matter of trust

Some love is just a lie of the soul
A constant battle for the ultimate state of control
After you've heard lie upon lie
There can hardly be a question of why

It's hard when you're always afraid
You just recover when another belief is betrayed
So break my heart if you must...

I know you're an emotional girl
It took a lot for you to not lose your faith in this world
I can't offer you proof
But you're going to face a moment of truth

You can't go the distance
With too much resistance
I know you have doubts
But for God's sake don't shut me out

I've lived long enough to have learned
The closer you get to the fire the more you get burned
But that won't happen to us
Because it's always been a matter of trust

This time I've got nothing to lose
You can take it, you can leave it, whatever you choose
I won't hold back anything
And I'll walk away a fool or a king...

GUTS

Her question was: "What has been your greatest achievement?... the one that is a true reflection of your manhood"

I love her questions... they're usually smart, deep, thought provoking and tough. But there was something about the way she structured this one that made me hate it...

For starters, I do not think that any of my "achievements" really have to do with my manhood or lack thereof... I have had my share of achievements in my life... some I have worked hard to earn them... some have just been the fruit of being at the right place at the right time... in other words plain, common, ordinary luck...

Secondly, I do not really know what being a man really means... but whatever it is... whatever definition you can find or come up with... I'm sure I would qualify as mediocre at best...

Maybe... the best achievement I think of... the only one I am really proud of... is finally deciding to face, overcome and conquer my fears... to finally be able to stand before those I love and trust completely naked both physically and spiritually... so they can see me for who I really am... without disguises... without secrets... without fears... allowing them to really meet for the first time the freak behind the mask... not caring anymore if they were going to like what they saw... giving them an opportunity to accept me, to like me and to love me the way I am... That, my friends, took guts... Guts I did not know I had.