WAIT AND SEE...

I am totally drunk as I write this, so sue me if it goes astray

I have made many mistakes in my life...
Some of them, huge....

I shouldn't have wasted almost 5 years of my life in Civil Engineering school...

I should have listened to all the people and to all the signs
That told me again and again that a relationship with her wouldn't work
But my stupid pride didn't allow me to walk away when I had the chance....

I shouldn't have touched that girl's forehead to see if she really had a fever...
If I hadn't, I would not have been wrongly accused of sexual harrassment...

I shouldn't have let X get away...

And here I am...

I don't have the job I want to have,
nor the house, nor the bank account,
nor the car, nor the body,
nor the wife, nor the freedom...

However, there are a few things in the right place...

I've got a wonderful healthy and happy baby who I love with all my heart...

I've got a handful of great friends who kick me in the balls when I need it...
And who also stand by me through thick and thin...
Above and beyond the call of duty

I've got a very special person in my life who is the best friend anybody could have...
My soul mate...
And for whom I would gladly give my life away over and over...

I've got a good head on my shoulders... and wild staring eyes...
And a wonderful collection of music...

A great godson who I want to look up to me...
And people who respect me... and some who fear me...
And some people who send me jokes and dirty pictures very often...
And many people who actually value my opinion and thoughts...
And some faithful readers who visit this blog every so often... and enjoy it...

That's enough to make me want to wake up every morning..
Oh... What a lucky man I am!!!!

And one day... with God as my witness...
I swear that someday
I will correct everything that is not working out in my life right now...
I will fight to make things right...

I will have the job I want, in the country I want...
I will have the money I want,
I will live in the house I want, and own the car I want...
And I will have the relationship I want with the right person...

Oh.. my skeptic friend... you'll be bedazzled!!!
I swear on my life.

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Have you ever wanted to find a reason to get mad at a person?
Just lie awake at 4:00 AM and probably it will come to you...
Damaged egos, hurt pride, crazy suppositions, insane jealousy, unreasonable angst...
The possibilities are endless...

But then a new day dawns, and you start questioning yourself...
Am I just plain dumb? Why try to fix something that ain't broken?
Why should I go chasing waterfalls?
Why should I waste sleep over non-existant issues?
Why do I have to make an issue out of everything?

And so... you're confused! baffled! sad! depressed!.... and you don't even know why....
Maybe you just want a little tenderness... some sugar.... a hug... a kiss...
Maybe you just want someone to punch your lights out and leave you bleeding on the floor...

And then it happens...

The tiniest, most insignificant, most irrelevant detail changes everything...
And gives hope and you start believing in the world again
And all your stupid issues fly out the window
And you see the light again...

THIS ONE GOES TO...

The one I took for granted

Now I look into your eyes
I can see forever, the search is over
You were with me all the while

The one I want to see again

Send her my love - Memories remian
Send her my love - Roses never fade
Send her my love

The one that left me scarred

It's there in my eyes and coming straight from my heart
It's running silent and angry and deep
It's there in my eyes and it's all I can say
Come on and read 'em and weep

The one that brought out the best and worst I could be

I want to come over
To hell with the consequence
You told me you loved me - that's all I believe
I want to come over
It's a need I can't explain to see you again

The one who listened

A bottle of white, a bottle of red
Perhaps a bottle of rose instead
We'll get a table near the street
In our old familiar place
You and I, face to face

A bottle of red, a bottle of white
It all depends on your appetite
I'll meet you any time you want
In our Italian Restaurant.

The one who confused me

Is this a blessing? Or is it a curse?
Does it get any better? Can it get any worse?
Will it go on forever? Is it over tonight?
Does it come with the darkness? Does it bring out the light?
Is it richer than diamonds? Or just a little cheaper than spit?

The one who got me crazy

The heart of the city street was beating
Light from the neons turned the dark to day
We were too hot to think of sleeping
We had to get out before the magic got away
We were running with the night
Playing in the shadows
Just you and I, 'til the morning light

The one that made me dream

There's a place for us
A time and place for us
Hold my hand and we're half way there
Hold my hand and I'll take you there
Somehow, someday, somewhere

The one that made me cry

But if you see me walking by,
And the tears are in my eyes,
Look away, baby, look away.
If we meet on the streets someday,
And I don’t know what to say,
Look away, baby, look away.
Don’t look at me;
I don’t want you to see me this way.

The one I'm writing this about

I know just how to whisper and I know just how to cry
I know just where to find the answers and I know just how to lie
I know just how to fake it and I know just how to scheme
I know just when to face the truth
And then I know just when to dream
And I know just where to touch you
And I know just what to prove
I know when to pull you closer
And I know when to let you loose
And I know the night is fading
And I know the time's gonna fly
And I'm never gonna tell you everything I've gotta tell you
But I know I've gotta give it a try
And I know the roads to riches
And I know the ways to fame
I know all the rules and then I know how to break 'em
And I always know the name of the game
But I don't know how to leave you
And I'll never let you fall
And I don't know how you do it
Making love out of nothing at all