BORDERLINE AUTISTIC

Why are you so quiet?

Duh... As if you didn't know.
I'm not angry... I still want you to be with me

Just don't ask me to smile...

I don't like to see you this way.

Then, do something about it... for crying out loud.
Do you think I like being like this? Well, I don't...
But I need help to get out of this mood...
If not it could take days, weeks, months...
And only you have the power to move me...
You could get me out of this mood in 30 seconds if you really wanted to...
I'm sure you know that by now...

I WONDER

I don't know how many sweet words I have said to you,

But, tell me, do you remember them all?

Do all the words remain intact within your mind?

Do they please you when you are unpleased?

Do they still inspire you? Have they ever?

I don't know how many words of love I have written,

But, tell me, have you learned them all?

And does it excite you when you read them?

I don't know how many words I have said that I can say are mine,

But, tell me, have you heard them all?
Needless of all that have been said,

Do all the words signal some sort of sign?

Do they make you happy?

Have they made a difference?

Do they make you heart beat faster?

Have they had the impact they inteded?

Have I won your heart and your soul?

Has it all been worth while?

Do I have a chance?

Do you ever think of me? Do you ever dream of me?

Do you ever wish I was there with you?

Do you understand? Do you feel the same?

Do you ever feel the need to die in my arms in an everlasting kiss?

Do you ever want me to wake up next to you?

And take my hand and make love in the sun?

LIFE IS WEIRD

I thought today was gonna be a bad day... I wanted to write one of my patented "life is shit" blogs... in fact, I started writing two of them... one was going to be entitled "Angels don't Fall in Love"... here's an unfinished fragment:

The trouble is I see you missing so much
While you're knocking on all the wrong doors
You stand at the gate hoping to gain admission
How long are you willing to wait?
And the trouble is that you believe that
When the sun goes down
There's something left for you...

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the other had a simpler title... "I Want My Money Back"...
here's another unfinished fragment:

What about sex?
It's defective - All the batteries are dead

What about friends?
They're defective - They're all strangers to me

What about God?
It's defective - the warranty expired

What about work?
It's defective - I wish I didn't know now what I didn't know them

What about family?
It's defective - It's corroded and decayed

What about the girlfriend?

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HOWEVER, every time I tried to finish them.. I couldn't...
I took a walk around the block to clear my mind...
I wound up sitting in the corner feeling glad...
No matter how much I tried I can't be sad...
That was the best cup of coffee I ever had...
There is something that puts a silly smile on my face lately...
The situation hasn't really changed...
Everything still the same... same problems... same issues
So what is it? Who knows...
Maybe I'm finally enjoying being in love...

THERE YOU GO!

and with the horses prancing through the fields,
with my knife in my jeans and the rain on the shield;
I sang a song for the glory of the beauty of you

What good is a computerized nose? What good is a war without killing?
what good is rain that falls up? What good is a disease that won't hurt you? What good is a life without living? What good is a lion that barks but doesn't roar? What good is a sunset if we can't watch it together? What good is a flier if he don't have a plane? What good is a doctor if he can't cure the pain? What good is the heavens without the stars above? What good is love without loving you? What good is life without you?

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