NIFOC

Don't understand what's going on
Woke up this morning,
All the hurt was gone
This is a new beginning
I'm back in the land of the living

Saturday, May 31, 2003

ALIVE


I heard an interesting story the other day

A friend of my uncle's had been playing the same lottery number for about 15 years... and had never won anything worth mentioning.. until recently when he hit the Christmas jackpot and found himself 400 million colones richer overnight...

Gee Whiz!

The last few years, I have lived my live trying the best that I can to avoid taking big risks... especially when the odds were against me... so, I have always played it safe by trying to control the environment around me, aiming endlessly at leading a “normal” white-picked-fence kind of life far away from ridicule and surprises... not going out much anymore… no adventures… no thrills…
I’m tired of myself.

Winds of change are blowing by...

Lately, I have realized that not really knowing the outcome of the game - whether you're gonna win or lose- is what really makes it exciting... and that having the opportunity to play the game itself makes it all worth while... and if when the lights go down, the day is yours... that's the cherry on top of the sundae..

The game of life deals us all different hands... however, every hand is a winner and every hand is a loser... the secret is knowing how to turn a losing hand into a winning hand... and believe me... sometimes it's a lot easier that it seems... you only need to take the risk... nothing ventured, nothing gained…

Let me make a point here...

Do you know this guy?



This is Lyle Lovett.. and Julia Roberts was once madly in love with him...



Do I have to say anything else?

My advice to myself is now... start taking those pesky risks... say those things you always wanted to say but never actually had the guts or ball to... dare to dream... plan those plans... make those propositions... dare to fall in love again... dare to face the world naked to the bone… lose yourself in the moment… worst that could happen?... you get a "no"... a slap in the face... or someone may laugh at you.. BIG DEAL!

Granted!

When you take risks, there’s always a price to pay… but even what most people would consider “high” prices are really not so… for example, losing everything you own… your family, your house, your money, your car, your career, your credit, your soul… could sometimes be a good thing… you get a once in a lifetime chance to reinvent yourself, to upgrade yourself, to be born again… and the only way to be reborn is to die first.

Besides, I’m dying to find out if at the end of the rainbow there is a pot of gold or a crock of shit…
and there’s only one way to know for sure…


By the way… remind me to get me some lottery tickets…

Tuesday, May 27, 2003

THE SPARK







One of my favorite websites for fun and profit is THE SPARK. I recently visited it again and took all the wonderful and funny tests all over again... here's how I did...

I'm 56% mutant... a mutant wannabe...
I'm a Submissive Introvert Abstract Feeler.. in other words, a dreamer...
I'm 37% sexy... hey... at least I'm a little bit sexy...
I'm 50% rock solid friend... according to the test, all true Virgos are...
I'm only 45% pure... guess what the other 55% of me is...
I will die on July 20, 2039 at age 71... supposing nobody kills me first
I'm not pregnant at the moment, but in my lifetime I will have... get this... 39 children... only 38 to go.. yay!
I'm 78% untelligent... that means that you should watch out... I'm pretty street smart
I'm 61% lovable... funny, I always thought I was 100% lovable...
I'm 57% datable... how come more people don't know this?
I'm 20% gay... Hey... the typical straight male is 39% gay...
I'm 66% pickable.... again... how come more people don't know this?
I'm 62% marryable... Gee... I'm more pickable than marryable... yay!
My inner child is a Little Filthy Old Pervert... or LFOP... I always thought I was a FUPP...
Right now... my stress level is at 42%... just the average
I'm 62% bastard... mmm... I need to get that score a bit higher
I'm 64% greedy... according to the test, I would need a $131 bribe to spread a jar of mayo in my underwear... NOT TRUE! I would do it for free depending on who's doing the spreading
I will be worth a MILLION dollars by the time I'm 51.... so what do I do until then?

Besides, I will only have 20 years to enjoy my million... go figure...